Unsure

I've had this topic sitting in my "Edit Posts" section for some time. I've been adding to or subtracting from it occasionally. You know, between painting a wall or rummaging through boxes. The main idea, though, is a subject I've been wrestling with for a while. Trying to figure out what I blog about and who I blog for. I don't consider myself to be some author with a wide readership and countless scores of strangers waiting with baited breath for my next publication. I also won't belittle the family and friends and the random lurker that will read what I put out there. But finding a subject that satisfies ME is what I'm getting at.

Some things are too mommy-ish. But Mommy things are intertwined with my daily goings on. I do have an opinion, but I don't want to be too political or polarizing. So what to do? It's difficult to have a separate identity from the 'Mommy stuff' because that's my life! I like being a Mom!! I've thought of having a separate blog, I just don't know what I'll accomplish. Sometimes there are things I KNOW that just my friends will find funny, but my Mom won't and vice versa. (nissan versa, boop boop, uh, yeah, i'll explain another time) See what I mean??

Should I just channel my writing itch and write a book? No, too ambitious. Or maybe do a themed blog, like my current projects or a Julie/Julia project. No, stupid, already been done. Not that I would care if anyone ever liked it. I don't think the world needs ANOTHER pointless book or blog. Not that I'd try to make it pointless, it would just turn out that way. I'm way too spread out in my interests. Blame it on ADD. Everyone else does. I started this blog to keep connected with family and friends while we're far away. And I've ended up liking the blogging part a lot more than I thought. Yeah, go ahead and laugh, I don't care. I enjoy making time for it and I get a little thrill from every. single. comment. 'Cause seriously, who doesn't want just a teeny bit of recognition for all the hard work that goes into composing a well written story? And also, to be perfectly honest, yes, blogging fills a little narcissistic pleasure corner of that gray matter between my ears.

As long as I'm being completely honest, I like blogging/writing so much, I have even gotten out of bed to go finish writing out a thought that kept banging around in my head and wouldn't let me sleep. I know, interfering with sleep, crazy!! Not because I think it'll wow anyone or get me a Pulitzer or even a thousand hits in an hour. But because I like it. I love it. I want some more of it. (there's a little bit of Tim McGraw for ya) I read other peoples ouevres and feel a tiny knot of, I don't know, jealousy? No. Envy? Maybe. Desire? YES!! YES!! Desire to create something that I enjoy and for someone else to enjoy. So here's to branching out, cutting back or whatever the heck I decide to do!